Hi,

Sorry I haven't been on much lately, but there's been a lot of things going on around me as of late.

To start it all off, my mother has cancer, Lymphoma, I'm not really sure what kind of Lymphoma it is exactly there's a few if I remember correctly REAL has established so far 18 different kinds of Lymphoma. As far as I know the survival rate is pretty high for someone my mother's age and the fact that it hasn't spread during all the years she has (probably) had it. It's speaking for her.

So the cancer is taking a toll on us all. And she won't be getting treatment until they have fixed her heart, which was working to much, because the lungs weren't giving the blood enough oxygen, which was caused because her liver and kidneys weren't working properly and her spleen was almost twice is size then it should be. But when her heart is better her cancer treatment will start and then the next wave of hardship will hit us.

I myself haven't been feeling all to good these days, I try to stay positive but it's not the easiest task when there's not much in once life to keep ones hopes up. I have my good days and I have my bad days, though the good days are getting fewer and fewer.

And some other things that have been happening around me, my uncle whom had been of alcohol a few months started drinking heavily again, another drop for us, my friend found out she's pregnant and aren't sure how she will handle it, I hope she knows I stand by her no matter what she does, I'm in love with someone that's in love with someone else, my aunt and uncle are trying to have a child and so far it's going well for them (WOW something nice that's happening), my cousins child (age 2 1/2) got mad at me for not visiting for a few weeks ain't that just the cutest thing?! My brothers girlfriend got her drivers license...
In little less then a week it's three years since my grandfather died, I can't understand what the hell has happened since then, I thought it was just a few months ago he died....

Haven't read a book in ages, not even a manga, been watching some movies but not much, haven't been drawing or writing anything. No inspiration for anything...

Goals before the end of the year;
*Start swimming 2-3/week
*Apply for a few courses
*Visit my father, stepmother and my brothers
And last but not least, *Finish at least one of my on-going stories

That's it for me now,
I'll try to check in more often now (828 deviations to check)

With love
Yours truly
Sandra